You are part of the fam that inspires me to achieve things greater than I.

Thank you.

She was the light that brightened absolutely everything in my entire world. Any type of love I’ve ever received in my life I owe to her. On march 9 2009 my grandma passed away. It’s been four years but if I close my eyes I can still picture her sitting at her table with her coffee and her muffin, reading the daily word from her bible. But if I close my eyes I can still hear her praying for every single family member in morning and nightly prayers. But if I close my eyes I can still see her smile…

The image you have of me is one you have taken the time to create. No, I’m not perfect. I take forever to get ready in the morning, I don’t always make my bed, I’m slightly selfish, I have my insecurities, and I don’t like Chipotle. Ugh. So go ahead and judge me based on your own visually insipid thoughts.

my smile used to be the one thing that hid all my pain. but now i just feel like the pain has won a nonexistent game. i dont smile as much as i used to because at times it doesnt even feel worth it anymore. i imagine a see-saw. my pain sitting heavy on one side of the board while my smile sits high in the air on the other side, no longer strong enough to mask the heaviness inside my heart. i don’t smile as much as i used to. 

i like you more than i lead on to. 

inappropriate thoughts.